If you're looking for an internal randomness controller to add to your synths, I made a gaussian distribution number generator in Fruity Formula Controller.  Go to this youtube video for the formulas and patcher download.
 

To all those who care,

Oxytoxic has been a project of mine for about 3 years, I typically get most of the work done on this when I am sleep deprived.  Most of the ideas seem to come when I'm in this state and maybe it helps get me into the 'madness' emotion which I'm trying to express in it.

I posted a preview of this song and I'm leaving it up mostly for the GMD users but when the final version comes out, I will hopefully have an animation made for it as well.

Btw, that's when I started the 3rd version of this song and I have all 103 mixer channels filled (not necessarily used tho) and the FLP file is 5400 kB (That means I did a f*** ton of clicking).

Once I heard my songs on an actual stereo system as opposed to my $20 sony headphones, all of a sudden I dislike my music on a technical level.  I heard mediocre mixing, poor EQing and even peaking in places where they would have been easy fixes.

After listening to and commenting on many other people's songs for a period of time, I dislike my recent music on an artistic level because the expressions in my music sound monotonous to me.

This means I'm probably gonna make some weird shit in the future, but at least it may have proper sound design.

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